I Wonder...Do You Ever?

from churchart.com 

Do you ever see someone doing something or hear someone say something and think “seriously…why. Why would you do that or say that…?” Do you ever wonder how some people have made it to where they are in life? Do you ever question how you have made it to where you are in life? Do you ever wish that you could change someone else’s attitude or thought process? Do you ever wonder how things would be if you had done one thing differently 5 or maybe 10 years ago? Just this morning I think almost all of these questions passed through my mind.

What is that I hear from you, is that a resounding YES! Glad to know I am not alone.

What are other things you wonder about?

I wonder how my life would be different if I hadn't listened to the voices of those around me saying that I should explore the idea of vocational ministry.

I wonder where I would be if I had, in my stubborn nature, continued on my way to become a band/choir director.

I wonder how my life would be different if my dad hadn't died when I was 21 years old.

I wonder…

I wonder, honestly, how some of the people in my life came to be part of my life.

I wonder how some people have been given the power over others without any kind check/balance system. (I am not speaking of the government here)

I wonder if I hold that power over another human being and I am not even aware that I do. (Even having that thought makes me feel like I probably do and I don’t know what to do about it)

I wonder why it is so difficult for us, humans, to let go of things and move forward.

I wonder if the “good old days” were so good why we, humans in general, made attempts to “improve what we had”.

Most often I wonder why I have so many random thoughts throughout the day and how I get anything else done.

I wonder about life and people and governments and other pastors and the environment and well everything I listed before and probably a great deal more I am not thinking about right now.

The interesting thing to me is that in the midst of all my wondering I never wonder about my faith. Where it came from, how I've grown because of it, or actually how I have grown in spite of my wondering about everything else.

I never wonder where God has been through everything in life. I never wonder when the other shoe will drop. I never wonder how I will get through the next “life lesson”. The only thing I sometimes wonder is WHY I don’t wonder about those things, unless I force myself to (for this blog for example).  

I never wonder about those things because I have learned from people in my life and experiences, both positive and negative, that God is the only constant in my world of wondering.

My last wondering, at least for today-

I wonder, do you ever feel the same way?